"Fragments from a Disfigured Fantasy" is a project mostly inspired by snippets of things we learned the hard way, glimpse of those what ifs and why it didn't became into a reality.

3. FRAGMENTS FROM
A DISFIGURED
FANTASY
A Zine by Jason Tan

4. "Fragments of a Disfigured Fantasy: A collection of Art” zine.
Copyright @ 2023 by Jason Tan
All rights reserved.
No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system or
transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying,
recording or otherwise, without prior permission from the publisher.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, business, events and incidents are
the products of the author's imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living
or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

7. I have been in a stage that I have been enjoying making zines.
I put out “Goodnight Cruel World, See You in the Morning”
last April of 2023. Something I put up for years and I was
scared if I can put it out in the world because I was caught up
with the idea that I wanted to publish it physically.
Suprisingly, I discovered creating zines - which were amazing.
There were no limitations and restrictions. Creating these
babies were a good way in releasing my stress and
frustrations.
"Fragments from a Disfigured Fantasy" is a project mostly
inspired by snippets of things we learned the hard way, glimpse
of those what ifs and why it didn't became into a reality.
This is messy as it can be. This is basically a bag of thoughts
coming from different people, social media and experiences.
Moreover, these are bricks of realizations intentionally create
to hit you.
This is second part of my Zine Trilogy I’d like to call
“Parataxic Silence”.
Have fun in looking these pieces.

10. T h e r e ’ s b r a v e r y i n b e i n g s o f t . .

11. W
a
k
i
n
g
u
p
i
s
t
h
e
best ticket to this relentless nigh
t
m
a
r
e
c
a
l
l
e
d
l
i
f
e
.
W
a
k
i
n
g
u
p
i
s
t
h
e
best ticket to this relentless nigh
t
m
a
r
e
c
a
l
l
e
d
l
i
f
e
.

12. Take comfort of knowing that none of it matters.

13. I hate giving up on people,
but I hate forcing things more.

15. T
h
e
v
e
n
o
m
y
o
u
i
n
j
e
c
t
e
d
i
n
m
e
w
as not strong enough to put me do
w
n
.

16. The worst pain is getting hurt by the
person you expained your pain to.
The worst pain is getting hurt by the
person you expained your pain to.

17. The easiest thing is to give up.

18. A
r
e
y
o
u
s
a
y
i
n
g
s
o
r
r
y
t
o
m
a
k
e
me feel better?
or are
y
o
u
s
a
y
i
n
g
s
o
r
r
y
t
o
m
a
k
e
y
o
u
r
s
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f
f
e
e
l
b
e
t
t
e
r
?

21. S
o
m
e
t
i
m
e
s
,
i
t
’
s
b
e
t
t
e
r
N
o
t
k
n
o
w
n
i
n
g

23. I’m just
swimming in
circles,
waiting to
fucking
drown.

24. 私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません
私は決してあなたにはなりません

25. Y
o
u
h
a
v
e
t
o
s
t
o
p
r
e
b
u
i
l
d
i
n
g
b
o
n
d
s
y
o
u
d
i
d
n
’
t
b
r
e
a
k
.

26. Sometimes
deciding
who
you
are,
is
deciding
who
you’ll
never
be
again.

27. When the
dreamer
dies,
What
happens
to the
dream?

28. Behind every strong
person,
There is a story that
gave them no choice.

30. Mr. Moon,
Why do people leave? Why does your
creator take away everyone that I love?
Would it hurt for him to explain? Cause I
wanted to comprehend how this will
make me better.
I want your creator to ask for my
forgiveness. No, I want him to beg for it.
I want him to be on his knees. He doesn’t
feel what I’m feeling now. He is not
human to understand.
Thank you for listening.

31. In the grand
scheme of
things, you will
realize that all
those fleeting
moments do
not guarantee
anything but
heartbreak,
bruises & shit.

32. WE OUTGROW PEOPLE WHEN WE OUTGROW
THE VERSIONS OF OURSELVES.
Continue to evolve, little one.
becauseevolutionis
neededtosurvive
Outgrow

35. STAND UP FOR
YOURSELF
FIRST, BEFORE
YOUSTANDUP
FOROTHERS

36. Whatever
happens,
I
do
know
I'm
not
in
control.
If
it's
meant
to
happen,
let
it
be.
THIS IS DESTINY FUCKING ME UP BIG
TIME WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE
[ EYE ]

37. It's when you are at your
weakest when you find
your strength.
If you're courageous
enough to speak, you
should also be brave
enough to listen.
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Don't trust too much. Don't
love too much. Don't hope
too much. Because that too
much can hurt you so much.

38. FIN